Happy Valentines Day

          For Valentines this year John and I saw Deadpool on Thursday night and had dinner at Olive Garden last night. Both were amazing. Deadpool really is a romantic movie. It's also sarcastic, hilarious, violent, and uses many many many swear words. It bears repeating. This movie is NOT for children, but if you're an adult who wants something a bit more intense with their super hero movies, you should totally go see Deadpool! John and I were very impressed. 

Disclaimer

Although the title of this blog is "Cheaper than Therapy" I want to put it out there that I by no means think ill of psychologists and therapists. It's just that in my experience with therapy, I spend the hour explaining things and I feel better without even needing their feedback. I either just need to vent, or work things out somewhere outside my own head.

I don't feel right paying for something every week that I don't really get anything unique from. It gets expensive!

The other problem I had with therapy, is I didn't always need to talk when my scheduled appointment came up. I tend to compartmentalize things that are bothering me, and if I don't solve it within a certain time frame, it goes on the back burner until something or someone drags it out (usually my Hubs). Trust me when I say that getting these thoughts out as soon as I can is better.

I do have a psychiatrist that I check in with periodically to make sure my meds are working the way they should. For now, I feel that this is enough professional help for me.

You might also notice the web address for this blog has nothing to do with "cheaper than therapy". Isabella Stardust is my name for Roller Derby (more on this later). I used this name for the web address so that my blog can change and grow as I need it to, while still being mine, and I'm not trapped into a specific topic.

A New Beginning

I don't read a lot of blogs, but there are a few I keep up with the best that I can. The blogs I love are about real life. Real people talking about their real day-to-day life: the good and the bad. The tough stuff is especially inspiring for me because it's the kind of thing that's hard to talk about with anyone in person, but they put it online and suddenly there's an entire community jumping up to say "I'm here." 

This is the kind of blog I want mine to be. I've tried blogging before, but I ended up letting life, anxieties, perfectionism, and depression get in the way. Part of that was trying too hard to focus on my crochet. As much as I love to crochet, being creative isn't always easy, and I always felt the need to wait until something was finished and perfect before putting it online. In the end, I just stressed myself out trying to come up with something "good enough" to put online, and then stressing that I hadn't posting in days, weeks, or months. 

So I'm starting fresh, and this is it. A new blog with no rules. I'm just going to write whatever I need to get out of my head and out into the world for my own sanity. No guidelines. No time frames. No word counts. Just me.